Jogged today and processed some photos.

Just haven’t found a nice place to capture the “AMK” feeling.

Maybe the night scene will do better?

I should do the overdue write up for Ippudo. The pictures that I saw on HungryGoWhere did no justice to the actual ramen. Not that it was great though.

I think the presence of the Facebook status bar is sapping away my energy to write a full blog post here.

Why go through the trouble of logging in and create a post when I can do the same in 150 characters or less.

And then we mourn the death of English composition. People don’t know how to write any more.

I am still having gastric. Not good, not good. But at least I have more insurance coverage now, in case anything happens. There is this great book that helps as well.

Time to grab dinner.

Well, just to prove myself wrong, I jogged after working 12 hours and I feel perfectly alright.

It is a vicious cycle when you work so long and you become so stressed up and then you realize that you are too tired to jog after work. It is actually better to force yourself to exercise because it will sort of even out the mental and physical fatigue.

If your brain is the only one getting stressed by work, you will be dreaming of getting handcuffed to your work desk just like me.

2010 is looking good so far, with my supreme library membership that cost me $42. Which incidentally is the answer to life, the universe and everything.

New year resolution will be to read more and to exercise more.

It is good to know that I am not alone in thinking that depression is tied to intelligence. Or rather knowledge is tied directly to depression. Smart and knowledgeable people are more vulnerable to depression simply because of the amount of knowledge they have and the intellectual capacity they have to process it.

Sort of explains why people keep telling you to find something to do in your life and you won’t have to worry about depression. You simply train your mind to think about other things, tangible or non-tangible. Sooner or later you will be able to condition yourself so well that you will no longer think to yourself any more.

Now that is something to console myself with when ever I am hit with depression.

The project has been extended for another three weeks, so nothing exciting to look forward to until the next go-live date. I just hope it will be better. Things look pretty bleak now that we have so many people leaving for the other projects and stuff. Might be the most challenging phase of the project for all I know.

I just pray that I will survive the shakedowns.

First post of the year!

Well I didn’t have FK or Shuan around this time for the New Year’s Eve. FK was away in Japan and Shaun isn’t around any more.

All I had was gastric and myself to cuddle with. Had dinner with another YT, poor fellow was having a rough time too. Misery loves company.

But all is not lost, 2010 will hopefully be a great year ahead!

I wish I will stop having the emo inducing gastric problem and toughen up for work.

And that my friends have a great new year too!

Hmm I need to get some more antacids. Makes me feel a lot better. Maybe looser pants and belts too.

Managed to survive today at work with very little shut eye. Not sure why but when I was feeling so drowsy there was an eerie feeling of peace. Probably because the brain can’t really function when you are absolutely just craving for sleep.

Wanted to crash right after I got home but was ruined by reflux and landlord’s niece who just has to talk on the phone so loudly for everyone to hear.

Probably better sleep tonight. Looking forward to it.

Last night was crazy. Never had so much random thoughts running through my head before. Couldn’t sleep well at all.

All that because I thought I offended someone.

Well thankfully I made it to the morning. Not sure how well I will be able to perform at work today. Seems like it is going to be a long day with all the dunning stuff and ORT going on.

Need to get a grip.

Having this zoning out problem again. My mind is like this unfocused lens that smudges my thoughts. I need something to focus on or I will have dreadful thoughts swirling in and out of focus in my mind.

One of the focal points that I have is when I am blogging. It brings a temporal sharpness to the thoughts that I have in my mind. That makes me stop worrying about all the improbable things that I think is coming my way.

Another activity that makes my mind focused is gaming. Which is probably why I spend so much time with it. It gives me something to do and my brain a break.

Only if I can channel this energy into my work. That’s some thing that can do with the focus.

Intriguing feelings. A little angry and a little jealous. I don’t actually recover that fast or that well.

Then again I am the one who chose to not plan for the holidays. Can’t blame any one.

Being able to love anyone quickly is not really a good trait to have. Easy come easy go. But hey you have to do what you do to move on in life.

Well tonight is the big night. Have to be in from 2am or so till morning. There goes my sleep.

For some unknown reasons I am dreading this entire event. Maybe it is because I can’t stand having my sleep pattern disrupted for work. Though I have disrupted it many times for other reasons, such as gaming and chatting with others. I still remember the times when I stayed up almost all night to chat in the church camp.

But now that I am older, sleep is a lot more important to me. I can’t tolerate the feeling of sleepiness very well. It makes me feel as if I am losing control, as if I am toppling over anytime. Though technically you won’t die with 4 hours of sleep per day, it still creates much fear in me whenever I have to do this long night thingy.

I guess it is just all part of mental conditioning. I just stayed awake through till 5am last Saturday, and I am definitely getting more than 8 hours of sleep everyday. I am just not used to making myself going through tough conditions. Too ill disciplined. I really should not have escaped army. I need to be broken open and fixed.