Having this zoning out problem again. My mind is like this unfocused lens that smudges my thoughts. I need something to focus on or I will have dreadful thoughts swirling in and out of focus in my mind.

One of the focal points that I have is when I am blogging. It brings a temporal sharpness to the thoughts that I have in my mind. That makes me stop worrying about all the improbable things that I think is coming my way.

Another activity that makes my mind focused is gaming. Which is probably why I spend so much time with it. It gives me something to do and my brain a break.

Only if I can channel this energy into my work. That’s some thing that can do with the focus.

The anxiety problem that I have fought so hard to shrug off seems to be creeping in under my skin once again. Not sure if it was due to the recent emotional upheavals that I went through or that the toll at work is finally manifesting.

I have beaten it once and I will beat it again. Tomorrow will be a better day.